fuck fuck fuck fuck, and one more thing, fuck it..

i had a very good picture of what life would be for me after graduating. i wold have a good decent job, decent salary. nt too much , not too less. i don have an extravagant life, so i dont need a huge sum of money.  i planned to quit smoking. i would be at work all day, and there wud not be any tme for smoking. i would also plan my lifestyle so that i could get some exercise in, to reduce the gut im growing. 

but then life just fucks up up at the wrong time doesnt it. now i dont have any of the above. nothing.

fuck …

i sit at home all day, check mails like a dumb moron, wait for the phone  to ring, whenever the thing rings, i hope it is some unknown landline with some hr offering me good news. pathetic. even more pathetic is when such an unidentified nuber comes up, n i answer with all enthu, and the lady asks if i want a call centre job.. i am a member of every single job site around.. every one of them.. naukri, monster, shine.com, timesjobs.. and sp far i must have searched and applied to some 50 jobs..  so far not one reply.. 

can anything be more pathetic than this…  

My friends have been very nice to me, referring me in their companies, supporting me thro all this.. Vinay, chandan have tried to refer me.. chandru and gingi have supported me in this time.. they are also in the same pickle as i am.. i don know whats the deal here.. both these guys have 2 yrs exp, and yet they get rejected.. this is one truly fucked up world.. 

some of my other friends think im a very smrt guy, what with my research work and all.. sometimes i just want to yell at all of them, saying  “look , im just a normal guy, i need a job, i need a life..“

Post graduate Blues..

I got my masters degree on 13th July ‘08. Today its 22. I have no job till date. I dont even have any interviews lined up.. Just sitting at home, eating, sleeping, smoking.

Its not like i did not try, i gave a number of attempts, lets see, starting with IBM, Infosys Setlabs, Huawei, HSBC, HP, CSC, Lucent, GE healthcare, among others.  The rejections that hurt the most were IBM, and HP.  Life would be just perfect if  i had the IBM job, work was a 10 minute ride from my home, job being very close to wha i desire, and the company being probably the biggest research organisations in the world.

I had 3 shots at HP, one from the campus visit, and 2 interviews from a referencefrom  my pal Vinay. To this day, I have no idea why I didnt make it during the campus visit. The written test had a c++ section,  which i dont have a very good hold on, but to reject a guy for not knowng a prorammin language is a bit nuts i feel. anyway the other phone interview went rather well, i answered pretty much all the answers, but i was told the position was filled up by some other means. NO clue. The third interview apparently the guy told im thro, but the manager it seems is lookin to interview ony one guy for the position. so its between me and 3 other guys. again i dont understand the process. if ur gonna  make up ur mind for anjob by interviewing only one guy, then what choice do u have??

The infosys setlabs interview was a bigger mystery. to this day i dont know on what basis they accepted or rejected ppl. one of my pals gingi, has 2 yrs of work exp, i have 1, now gingi was not even shortlisted. i got rejected after the written test, a test where i thought i did  very very well. and all my pals who said they did well, were not selected. very weird.. they call themselves a research organisation ,but the guy they finalised had neither work exp, or research exp..

I tried at lucent, gave an interview and test, answered all the questions in the interview, but still dint make it.. GE was different, the interviewr was a txtbook junkie, asking only fact based questions, nothing to test a candidate’s understanding or problem solving. again, got rejected.

so here i am, more that  a week after graduating, no job, no interview, sittng and writing a sad blog.

Life is truly fucked up..

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Ths is a blog where i write my feelings during the darkest moments of my life.. No spell checking, no formatting.. just my misery, out in the open..

It is said that the true worth of a man is measured at a time of adversity, well now is probably the best of all the worst times I have had..

I hope that some day, when things are going well, i will look bac on these days and remember how things can get bad.. and not get too carried away.

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